Blog's revived for my malay thing, what luh, destroy my whole emo thing only luh. haha. I joked.

soooo. what's up with life eh? err nothing much. still the same old shits I do every single days of my life. My dad still doesn't care much, My brother still with his gf, Hailey still likes starbucks, Dionne still as dionnic as ever. I had painted my room. It's purple, now you know why my skin's purple. GO PURPLE. exam's came and went. and soon Holiday's gonna go eventhough it hasn't come yet. Jesus. final year. It creeps me out. aiyayay.

My dearly beloved brother was being honest and told me this smackingly in my face : You're fat. Oh brother, that was very very veeerrryyy futile job of yours. I aint gonna run.

I'm out.

aye aye.

I don't know how's school today. they had 3 periods of Amaths,and 2 of Emaths. aiyayay. two more days to painting day. The idea psyched me up. 7 more days till I could get some cash. I want tp buy that topshop checkered skirt. Jesus,I do want. so I need to put away like 1 ..2 .. 3.. 5.. 7o buck. aiyayay. and then I still need to do The Project. aiyayay. why money matters so much. Looking at people who are crying tear my heart. I'd rather see them smile.

at this age, this moment, this time. I really do think that Life's sort of a sham.

okay okay. maybe I would have the idea of hows tomorrow's school.
till then.

How come people's lives seem to be so easy to live. You know,like looking at them makes me feel so shitty. ah damn it. when I ever will get a life, bang some sense, talk some senses or anything that a normal human does.
God damn it.

I'm bored. of practically everything.
who's to blame?

I want to go to school, damn it,

you know, at times, I couldnt believe myself. It's like DAMN GIRL, what the hell you want. like, at times I just want to swear at someone so badly till she goes crawling to her mama with drenched face. Like as though I always be someone who I loathe, who I bitch about, who I never want to be friend with.

this current life I'm leading..I hate it

Five months. Jesus.
I'm so over the moon right now
Don't bring me back onto the ground no more.

GET REAL
shall I elaborate what's the meaning?

you know, like seriously, at times I just prevent myself from doing so because truth hurts. I never want to know what's the truth, I hear what I want to hear all along, the rest would just occupy a teeny weeny bit in my mind and eventually would vanish.But this is THE TRUTH, by hook or crook, you cant get away from that, and live like as if you have got no shit happening. We cried, We hurt ourselves, we've become a self-hater, Ever anyone bang some sense in that these never could change the truth ? The point is Truth is real.

I'm just lack of love right now. I just want to hate someone so badly, so bad that I could perhaps swear for all my life I would never take it that he/she does exist. I just want to eradicate someone, and then another someone. Now, I just want to be alone. I'd rather be so than being with people who even cant feel my existence, than being in a situation in which my words hang in the air, and I'm only visible when I'm the last person that could be seen but never be seen. Being suck by a sucker is so unimaginable, you wouldn't even want to know how much did she/he suck already. so when you don't, you don't. when you say you want to be there, be there.

I seriously want to fall flat on my face.
I need a break.

Neither Im convincing nor promising
But I could have sworn all the words that I've said
I put all my life into it
I'm true

Today, I love Thomas.

Its not right to talk about people in my blog, making their names go bad and all that. its not right isnt it?

but what if Im speaking the fact .
my bad.

INTERNET'S RECONNECTED !
yup yup. if you wonder where the hell have I been. now you know why.
Exams Time.

a banana a day, keep a monkey away. so do have ! we celebrate banana day fortnightly.